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| Friday, November 14th, 2008 | | 2:03 pm |
Shit Balls.
So, I told Matt that I talked to Curtis last night. I was doing my best to be honest with him and respect the fact that this is an increasingly awkward (or however you spell it) situation. Matt had the audacity to ask me if I was going to get back together with Curtis. If he would have asked me that face to face, I probably would have slapped him. Curtis never actually hit me, but I did feel threatened by him the day I left. I could/would never be with someone that I feel physically intimidated by. I won't do it. I'm not stupid enough for it. So then he finally gets around to asking what the hell Curtis wanted. Curtis asked the obvious, "how's the baby" type questions and was actually quite civilized. I was impressed. I didn't think either one of us would be able to handle that kind of conversation. We've come a long way since our last conversation in July. So then Matt starts telling me why he gave me such an attitude about the whole Curtis thing. Apparently the she-bitch from hell... Is having severe mental problems. She's on all these different meds for her depression, her thyriod, and whatever she has wrong with him. Apparently its making her lose her memory. She told him that she knows that she's loves him, but she can't remember why. She doesn't remember the majority of their relationship. She doesn't remember him visiting her every other weekend and doesn't remember coming to visit him on the weekends that he didn't see her. .... I call bullshit. I think she's trying to find an easy out. I think she's playing with his heartstrings and making him think its not her fault that she's going to choose her loser husband over him. I won't say that to him, but its exactly how I feel. He feels like he's failed. I understand the feeling, but there's not much he could have done about it. He's convinced that he should have just gone out there and swept her off her feet. I doubt she would have let him. She's been stubborn enough about the rest of this, but at the same time, I feel like she WANTS him to feel like its partially his fault. She doesn't want any of the blame. Hence the pretend memory loss. Fuck shit cuntbag ball nutfuck! Anyways, the baby is doing well. It was kicking me for the majority of the night, so I didn't sleep so well and am a little cranky. Maybe that's why I ranted. Ah well. | | Saturday, August 11th, 2007 | | 5:22 pm |
One more down on my list
Well, I've finally been to a REAL concert... Not some random Christian bull crap or some band that's playing at the Metro. Ozzfest was flippin' amazing. People were throwing sod, cups, toilet paper, and I even saw a shoe or two fly through the air. I loved it. The energy was great, the music was awesome... And the company was the best part. Sneaky kisses that weren't so sneaky made the night all the better. Anyway--I had a great time. I got to hear Ozzy Ozzburne LIVE in probably one of the last tours he's doing. That's pretty frickin' amazing. Yep. Thanks Jimmie! ... oh yeah... and I miss you | | Saturday, August 4th, 2007 | | 4:56 pm |
| | Tuesday, July 24th, 2007 | | 12:25 pm |
Well, that was fun.
I'm still elated. And I'm off my shift for a few hours until I go back in at 4. Fun fun fun! | | Thursday, July 12th, 2007 | | 1:12 am |
Alright, time for a really long and boring post.
So, I kept a journal while I was on vacation, so I could actually remember what happened while I was there. Most of it will be pretty boring, but hey.... At least its an update.
Saturday, June 30th
-7am wake up, finished packing. Todd came over to drive me and my dad to the airport... Well actually, we found him sleeping in our driveway. I guess he got there a little too early. Weird.
-8am leave the house for the airport.
-When we get to the airport, its PACKED! The line for United is actually going out the door. Thank goodness for my brillance. I check outside at the curbside check-in and the line is about 7 people long. We get through that line in about 10 minutes and are through security before most people are 4 steps further in the long line inside.
-We get to our gate and I guess my dad and I were the last people that got tickets for the flight. They over booked the flight by about 72 people. PHEW!
-We board the flight on time. We're actually scheduled to leave on time. Then the pilot realizes that his chair won't pivot. So after we're ON BOARD, we have to wait for 2 hours for the maintainence men to fix it. Then after its fixed, someone ended up having a heart attack, so that was another hour delay for the wait for the paramedics to come and take him/her? off the plane. We finally take off right before noon.
-Sang "Happy Birthday" to my grandma on the flight, the entire (300 person) plane joined in. Pretty sweet :)
-Once we get into town, we go to the wrong car rental place and have to call a taxi service for 33 people and a ton of luggage, that was pretty interesting. I wish I could have heard the surprise in the guy's voice when my grandpa asked for 20 cabs. After that whole extravagansa, we had to find the condos. The directions weren't very clear, so we drove around the island for a good hour or so before finding it. I think we had passed it 4 times before we realized that it was right infront of our nose. We get into the complex and there's no front desk, no security... No nothing to tell us where our rooms are or anything. Once we found someone to get our rooms, my family got the wrong room number. They told us #102G when we were in #201G. Understandable, but after a long day--it was just irratating.
-My dad had to go back to the airport to pick up my mom and my sister shortly thereafter. I stayed at the complex, explored, and walked into town to grab something to eat. Met up with a few of the family members, ate with them and then walked around Whaler's Village (the mall in town) with my cousin Ashley. On the walk home, we caught frogs and made them hiss. Side Note: Jimmie... There aren't any squirrels in Hawaii!
Sunday, July 1st
-7am (12pm Chicago time) wake up.
-8:30 breakfast at the Rusty Harpoon.
-After breakfast we went and played at the beach. I was the only one who didn't burn-I win! Came back, ate Chinese (Not nearly as good as when Jimmie is around), and went grocery shopping. Chewy cookies... Yum!
-Went into Lahaina with Aunt Kim and her crew (Uncle Phil, Kyla, Leah, Micah, and Nadia) We met these basketweavers at the craft fair under the banyon tree. They were amazing! They were making roses, baskets, "honeydo's" (explaination in a moment), birds etc out of palm leaves and branches. A honeydo is a Hawaiian whip. Then you can say, "Honey, do this; honey, do that" while you're beating them. Sounded good to my Aunt Kim, she signed up for one of those REAL quick. The weavers were hilarious. They were non-stop with jokes and one liners.
"So, there's this new Hawaiian word for when people get off the plane. It's 'comoniwannaleiya'"
"You know what God said after he made me? 'Ah shit, burned another one'"
"What did the snail say after he jumped on the turtles back? 'Whee!!!'"
and some other ones that I don't remember. They were just great though. After talking with them, I got to climb the banyon tree, this tree was just amazing. I guess its the biggest banyon tree in the world. It was about a block long (and I do mean a Chicago block, that's about 1/8 of a mile. Then we started walking through Lahaina, exploring a bit... Found NaHoKu and picked out an oyster and got gold twins. I guess gold pearls are rare as it is, but to get two of them in one pearl is even more unlikely.
-Dinner at Canoe's. Way expensive, but well worth it. I had my first real fish tasting experience. I tried Mahi-Mahi, Ono, and Wahu. Loved the Mahi-Mahi!
-Walked with Walter on the beach after dinner. This is when I saw the coolest thing I've ever seen in my life. I saw a moon rainbow (Mehi-Ahi in Hawaiian--Ahi Ahi is a regular rainbow). I know it sounds silly, but I was amazed. We spent over 45 minutes trying to take a picture of it, but neither of our cameras would allow it. I wish I could have captured it. I was in awe, I didn't know that a moon rainbow even existed! I talked to a few locals later on and they said that its a once in a life time experience. Well, for them, they get it a few times, but for me to see it while I was just here on vacation must mean that I'm a really lucky person. After the moon rainbow faded all the way out, we started walking back. We talked about life, about how we wish that we were walking with our cousins, but someone a little more special (neither of us took offense). We picked on people that were on the beach late, got some to believe that the beach closed at 9:30. Got soaked, it rained off and on and we played in the waves. Once we got back to our complex, we found a snail! (Keep in mind, I've never seen a live snail) When you turn them over, the underneath looks like old lady vagina... Kinda scary!
Monday, July 2nd
-7am wake up
-Breakfast at Moose MaGilligan's. Great place, had hangover busters (bloody marys and screwdrivers), cheap food (21 egg omlete for 14.95--you finish it in a half hour, you get it free with a t-shirt), and friendly service.
-Travelled the Road to Hana (and survived!) As they put it, "Its a journey to no way, a trip through a post-card." In all reality, its a pretty scary road. It was built in 1826 (I think) and the road was meant for buggies. A lot of this road is blind curves and only has one lane... For both lanes of traffic. It was a little nerve wrecking going around a seemingly never ending curve that's a one lane bridge when you have other cars coming at you... When there's only room for one car. Got to Hana, went to a black sand beach... Really it just looks like dirt. But its still really cool! Went through the Hana Lava Tube. I felt like it was similar to Carlsbad Caverns... But I haven't been there since I was about 8. My mom and sister freaked out... So it was up to my dad and I to explore the cave. The guy that owned the land told us that we couldn't go past a certain point because there was an undocumented bug in the far end of the tube. I saw this weird redish bug while we were in the part we were allowed to go into and got all excited because I thought I was seeing one of these cool bugs... Nope, it was just a cockroach. I got excited over an icky, rotten cockroach. Ah well, because I sparked a conversation with the land owner, he ended up telling me about this new bug. It was pretty sweet. It kind of looks like a dust mite, but its smaller and can jump over 1000 times its length. Beats out the flea for the world's longest jumper.
-Ate at Outback (there's a trend here... I believe its called rapid weight gain) and then tried to walk off some of the calories with Walter. Helped him pick out some jewelery for his girlfriend, discovered Scrimschaw (bone etching-the whaler's art), almost bought a knife. Went out on the beach again and talked to a locla after he heard us saying how amazing the stars looked. He laughed at us because of it, told us that we needed to move out to the island. Then about 50 feet further... We saw a couple doing the no-no dance. Tacky!
Tuesday, July 3rd
-4:15 wake up :(
-5am we get to the dock for our fishing trip. My grandpa set up the reservations for 6am and forgot and thought it was a 5am call time. So, that was an hour I could have slept in--haha. Ah well, some extra time I got to spend with my papa, its all good with me.
-Left the dock around 5:45, got to watch the most beautiful sunrise I've ever seen in my life. Pictures will be posted. Tried a Corona-not half bad... Well, when its ICE cold anyway. Saw some pilot whales, an entire pack. Wrong time of year, but still got to see them. I was excited. Slept a whole lot and got skunked. Not as in we got all stinky, but as in we didn't catch ONE fish. Not even a bait fish. Ah well, I caught some sun :) that's all I needed.
-About 45 minutes away from Lahaina (our docking area), we see that its on fire. We had to wait for about an hour while the helicoptors poured fire retardant on the town and then started to put out the fire. I only got one good shot, but you can see that all behind the town is up in smoke.
-Ate dinner at Tomato Pie-had some pretty awesome Italian dishes.
-Watched the sunset with Walter and walked on the north side of the beach... The part that we hadn't seen yet. We met some awesome locals there (some of them were quite loco!). The fire-breathing Hawaiian, the drunken sailor, the amped up amazon lady, and the jester... Plus a few asians. We joined their bonfire, had a few drinks, and had a great time!
Wednesday, July 4th
Happy Independence Day!
-7am wake up
-I'm all sorts of excited to go surfing, but my sister was too hung over to go... So I walked to the pool to see if anyone fun was there and ended up going to the beach with Walter. We went to go see the locals again-great folks, I'm tellin' ya! We BBQ'd with them, went boogie boarding, watched Walter try to sand-skim (and face plant) and kayaking too!
-Went to the most... Hmm... Interesting Luau I've ever been to. Not very traditional, but still an amazing show. Hula'd, watched how a pig roast is supposed to be done, and learned a little more about the Hawaiian culture, they even did a mini fashion show.
-Watched the best sunset while we were there on the beach after the luau was over. Then started to walk the 3 miles to go see the locals again. A few of my other cousins were interested in going, so they came along for the hike. Leah and Micah (15 and 13) and Ashley (a few weeks away from being 21). By the time we got there, the locals had left, so we decided to make a bonfire of our own. And we actually succeeded. My aunt calls about 20 minutes after we get there and asks why Micah and Leah aren't back yet. I told the two of them that we'd be back around 12:30 so they needed to ask to stay out late. Micah told me that his parents agreed. Well, they didn't. They were supposed to be home by no later than 10. Great. So I walk (by myself) to the nearest hotel (roughly a mile), get directions on how to get there from our complex and then walk back. I get my cousins (and Ashley decides that she doesn't want to walk back, so she goes with them) and hike the mile to the hotel again and walk back to Walter on the beach. He cracks me open a beer (I guess I looked like I needed one) and we just chill together and watch the stars some. Made some more comments about how we wished that we had someone that we could enjoy it more with. We let the fire die out, poured sand all over it and then walked the 2 miles it took to get back to our complex. So I walked a good 9 miles (in the sand) that night. My calves were killing me!
Thursday, July 5th
-9am wake up (not feeling so hot)
-went to a craft fair, got some cool stuff and then went back to the complex and slept until we went to 'Ulalena.
-'Ulalena was AMAZING! Someone compared it to Cirque de Soliel, but I've never seen that, so I don't know for sure. Great music (all done LIVE, best drums I've heard in my life), great actors, great singers, great everything. I was impressed beyond anything I had imagined for this show. After the show, we spoke with Tito (the guy that played the demi god known as Maui), and he invited Kyla, Leah, and me backstage for the forum. I guess the people pay three times as much for their tickets to get to go backstage afterwards and we got to do it for free. Pretty sweet :)
Friday, July 6th
-7am wake up
-Took a two hour surfing lesson with Leah. Got up everytime, well, on my knees the first few times and then on my feet after that. She got up a few times too and was WAY excited. It was cute. I wiped out a few times (laying on my board, on the way out) and had a few lung fulls of salt water. Ouch! My lungs and arms were killing me by the time we got out of the water and then of course we had to drag our boards back to the other side of the beach. Great work out!
-Went into Lahaina again, shopped, talked to the Unbeweaveable guys again. Those silly basket cases. We gave them a HUGE order. They kept telling me that I was good for business because I kept sending people their way, so they gave me a basket free and made it look super cool.
-Went to the fish fry family gathering. All the adults got shit-faced and let their kids run wild. I hid in the back and played War with Leah to get away from all the noise. Left early and went to bed.
Saturday, July 7th
LUCKY DAY! (or something like that)
-Couldn't sleep, so I woke up at 2am, stayed up until 7 and woke up for real at 9. There was one of those little lizard guys (it wasn't a gecko, it was something darker) in my bed. So I didn't really want to go back to sleep until I found it. I couldn't find it, so I slept on the couch.
-Went on a snorkling trip. The captain was absolutely hilarious. He was a total flirt with all the girls and such a goof ball! He called all the girls princess or queeny and had some great one liners. He was super cheesey and really made the cruise fun. We went snorkling in some little bay and I had some silverfish following me. Kind of creepy, made me get out of the water before I thought I'd get out... But oh well. I saw some cool fish while I was off the boat and some sea turtles on our way out to the marina. I never realized how big they are!
-Went out to eat dinner with half the family and tried some more fish. Wasn't as tastey this time, but it was still pretty good. I didn't realise that I liked fish so much. Sang happy birthday to my grandma for about the hundredth (and last) time and they called it a night. I didn't. I ended up walking on the beach with Walter and Kyla and I almost made a local cry. Granted, he was drunk and already emotional... But I still felt bad. Some people just don't know how to take a joke.
Sunday, July 8th
-6am wake up, finish packing up my stuff
-Had a BEAUTIFUL breakfast. Great buffet. I could have eaten there for HOURS! But I couldn't... I had a plane to catch.
| | Tuesday, June 19th, 2007 | | 1:47 am |
Another Round
These games, these lies These pictures, these times They were only a moment Only a memory They’ve past, they’re gone I’ll miss them But I can’t care anymore You’ve lost my trust With that you’ve forgotten My loyalty will follow Time heals wounds But grudges are forever I hate regret So I won’t regret you But I can learn And I’ve learned You just aren’t worth my time
Someone that I cared a lot about recently made me pretty upset. I said I didn't want to be mysterious anymore, so I'm going to try to be as clear as possible. Its a long story, so I hope that I don't confuse anyone... Including myself.
So, my friend gets a DUI and then gets into a fight with his grandmother and has the cops called on him. He calls me at 2am and asks me to get him out of his house. I didn't really ask what was going on, me being in my sleepy stupor and all. After we're over a half an hour away from his house, he proceeds to tell me that he is now on the run. Great. Fuckin' great. Now I'm aiding someone who's on the run. Lovely.
I got him to where he needed to go and asked him to just keep me updated so I'd know that he was alright. That's all I needed. Well, he didn't call for almost a week and a half and when he does, all he does is says, "Well, I don't really need you anymore; so I guess this is good-bye. I'm not coming back, I'm saying 'fuck you and fuck the world,' I hope you don't take it personally"
Of course I take it personally, I put myself on the line for this fucker. Ah well, this is what people have friends for! I shouldn't be upset, but I thought he was a good friend and he just proved himself worthless in my book.
Ah, Jimmie. I need a hug. | | Thursday, May 31st, 2007 | | 7:05 am |
Well, I've got some good news... Kind of.
I'm single. Anthony and I officially broke it off yesterday afternoon but we both knew that it was coming. It made it easier. We're still friends, shit, I'm even going to his little brother's graduation on Saturday. So, hopefully things don't get too weird. I can't say I'm too upset. We were both wary of the way things were going in the relationship and decided to end it on good terms rather than bad ones. I can't complain. Anyway-off to the races! | | Tuesday, May 22nd, 2007 | | 12:01 pm |
Jimmie Got Me Sick PT 2
A little more on my friends: A lot of my friends are starting to come around and there are still a few that are like... Well, if you wanted to make time for us, you could... You just choose not to. They have a valid point, but like I said before, they didn't make time for me and proved that they weren't exactly worthwhile when I needed them most. So now that I'm short on time, I'm only making time for the people that matter most in my life. Family: They're being supportive, for the most part. They're really worried about me getting involved with drugs and diet pills and never getting any sleep. While the last one is true, they shouldn't worry about the first two. My sister comes into town on Friday, so I'm pretty stoked! I know I saw her last month, but I still love seeing her. We're getting along a lot better than we used to. Ugh, I don't feel like catorgorizing things anymore. Time for hodge-podge. I have a ton of laundry to do, I went WAY over on my text messages last month, my credit score is horrible for a bill that never got sent to me, I'm losing weight too quickly. I'm meeting awesome new people, I love my new job, I like having no rules for right now, I'm just flat out having fun. Uh, that was dumb. | | Sunday, May 20th, 2007 | | 11:13 am |
Jimmie... Now My Voice is Gone!
So you must have gotten me sick over the phone. Damn you! Just kidding. More updates: Filming: Met some amazing people. They all love me. In fact, they've declared me Amazing cubed. That's pretty fucking amazing. Haha. I've met a Canadian Rock Star by the name of Adam Fallon. From what I've heard, I like it. I've met my newest improv group. We freestyle jazz and make up random sentences when we're waiting for the crew to be ready to shoot. Its pretty awesome. I got to meet/stand next to Darren Warren yesterday. I guess he's been in a few movies and he was Justin and Britney's choreographer. I had never heard of him before, but he seemed pretty proud of all the work he's done. I hope I didn't offend him when I didn't know who he was... I just thought he was another extra to talk to, not an actual actor. Ah well, he was polite and was very supportive of extras. He's the only person that I've ever heard thank the extras. It was sweet. Hm... Anything else? Shoot, probably, but I don't remember. Friends: Well, I went to a strip club last night... And I saw my best friend from when I was 14-16 in the cage. That was weird... And then she gave me a lap dance, which was even more weird. Totally sexy, but weird. It went along the lines of, "Wow, didn't see this happening when we met in the locker room" and then some creepy guy was asking us how much we got paid for the locker room fantasy. Gah. Men. Anyway, I'm glad that Jimmie and I have been talking a lot. Its always a good day when I get my dose of Jimmie. Shit, I gotta go. I guess I'll finish this later. | | Tuesday, May 15th, 2007 | | 8:21 pm |
Quick Updates before bed.
Filming: Tiring but still fun. I've met some amazing people and my friend from Ohio is coming in tonight to film tomorrow through next Thursday. I haven't seen him in four years-so I'm pretty fucking excited. They chopped off over 6 inches from the shortest parts of my hair and over eight from the longest. I'm feeling a little naked, but I've gotten a few compliments. Boyfriend: Almost extinct. He hates that I'm doing the filming thing. He hates that I'm never around and he hates not knowing who I'm with while I'm filming. He hates that Tommy is coming in from OH and he doesn't get to meet him before I see him at the shoot tomorrow. He hates that I'm tired when I do make time and he hates that I don't have a lot of time to spare. He hates almost everything about my life right about now and I'm getting really upset. If all he's going to do is complain, why doesn't he just try finding better? I'm doing all that I can to make time for him and I feel bad that I don't want to go out and be crazy when I do... But I'm finally doing something that I enjoy and I'm not going to give it up. I'm going to ride the wave for as long as I can. School: I'm starting back up next semester. No more procrastination. Unless I get the stand-in part for the girl in James Bond. That'd just be too sweet to pass up. Ya know? Anyway, that's got about a 1/100000 chance of happening, so more likely than not-I'll be sitting in a classroom in less than 4 months. Woot! Friends: Some are really happy about the filming thing, others think I'm being stupid for doing it. Some are upset that I haven't had time for them-and those people... Well, I can't say that I feel too bad. They came home multiple times during the year and could have contacted me then. They didn't, so why should I make time for them? Some are just happy for me and haven't given me anything to complain about--they just hint that I should drive up north on one of my days off. That's a smarter way to do it. Plant the seed, don't force feed it! Appearance: Well, my hair do is confusing and today is the first time I've REALLY looked in a mirror. I kind of like it but I know that I'm going to hate having to do my hair everyday. Its not exactly low-maintainence. Ah well, hopefully by the end of the summer, it'll be back to ponytail length and I won't have to worry about it. My face, well... The makeup that they use for the shoot, its causing me to break out-I'm not going to lie, I've always had horrible skin... But right now, I'm super self-concious. My body-well, I joined a health club and my membership started yesterday, but as of now, well--its hard to get in with the filming schedule so I may have to cancel. I don't want to cancel-but I'm starting to think that I might have to if I want to continue with the whole movie thing. Its either film or sleep.... And the few times that I'm not doing those two things-I want to have a social life. Working out just isn't a priority. That and with my eating schedule going out the window, I've lost about 8 pounds. Gah. Emotional State: Satisfied. I'm okay with the fact that my decsions aren't making everyone happy. That's not normal-but I'm glad that I've reached that state. I'm doing what I want and I don't care if some people don't agree with it. They can shove it while I laugh it up on set and have an amazing summer! JK: Few things. Did I really call you Jim-A-Thy? Gah. I'm such a nerd. Good to hear that you kept them, I liked writing notes to you-they were fun and kept me occupied in class. And your brother will be in my prayers-as will you! | | Tuesday, May 8th, 2007 | | 2:42 pm |
Forever
by Papa Roach
In the brightest hour, of my darkest day
I realised what is wrong with me
Can't get over you, can't get through to you
Its been a helter skelter romance from the start
Take these memories that are haunting me
Of a paperman cut into shreds by his own pair of scissors
He'll never forgive her, he'll never forgive her
Because days come and go, but my feelings for you are forever
Because days come and go, but my feelings for you are forever
Sitting by a fire on a lonely night
Hanging-over from another good time
With another girl, little dirty girl
You should listen to this story of a life
You're my heroine, in this moment I'm lonely fulfilling my darkest dreams
All these drugs, all these women
I'm never forgiven, this broken heart of mine
Because days come and go, but my feelings for you are forever
One last kiss, before I go
Dry your tears, it is time to let you go
One last kiss, one last kiss, before I go
Dry your tears, it is time to let you go
Because days come and go, but my feelings for you are forever
Because days come and go, but my feelings for you are forever
One last kiss, before I go
Dry your tears, it is time to let you go
One last kiss, before I let you go, dry your tears
It is time to let you go, one last kiss..., but my feelings for you are forever
one last kiss, before i go
dry your tears, it is time to let you go
one last kiss, before i go dry your tears
it is time to let you go, one last kiss....
Not sure why-but that song hit me today. Hard. | | Thursday, May 3rd, 2007 | | 1:17 pm |
So, a little more info.
Its a movie called Express and Dennis Quaid is one of the bigger names in the film. I thought it was a little indy film-but I was wrong. This movie's going to get played NATIONWIDE! So, needless to say-I'm very excited.
I don't ever remember being this excited. I know that I'm over reacting, but I just can't help it. I know that its 15 hours a day for four seconds on the big screen, but acting was my dream as a child. If this is as close as I can get, I'll take it. I love being on the stage and have always wondered what it'd be like when the director yells, "QUIET ON THE SET!" For all I know, I won't even be able to recognize myself because they're asking everyone to wear pastels and nuetral tones-but I'm guessing that I'll know myself regardless. I'll probably be thinking to myself, "So... That's what I look like on screen... EW!" hahaha. I'm such a nerd.
So, wish me luck! Oh, wait... That's bad luck in this business--tell me to break a leg!
Baby, I'm a STAR! MWAH!
No more pictures, please! | | 7:17 am |
So, I dreamt of being on the big screen as a child...
And last night, I found out that I'm going to be an extra in a movie. Its not exactly as I've always dreamed--but still TOTALLY exciting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My call time is tonight at 3 and we'll be filming for anywhere from 12 to 15 hours. Then it happens again on Friday and Saturday. I'm going to be exhausted, but I'm too excited to care!
I'M GONNA BE IN A MOTHA FUCKIN' MOVIE! | | Thursday, April 19th, 2007 | | 2:10 pm |
Old poem-didn't want to lose it.
Through.the.screen.door.I.couldn't.hope.for.more.
Then.I.see.your.face.and.you.make.me.break.inside.
I.see.the.lies.You.see.my.pain.
Just.let.me.die.let.me.feel.the.rain. Why.can't.you.see.me.when.I.scream.your.name.
Why.do.you.let.me.take.all.the.blame.
I.can't.see.the.road.through.all.the.rain.
Just.let.me.die.let.me.feel.the.pain. You've.let.me.live.these.lies.
You've.left.me.to.curl.inside.and.die.
Let.the.rain.wash.away.my.pain.
I.know.my.heart.can't.handle.you.again.
You.lit.my.heart.aflame.Here.we.stand.once.again.
Living.all.these.lies.so.you.can.pass.me.by.
So.let.these.tears.run.like.the.rain.
While.you.let.me.die.all.over.again. | | Monday, April 16th, 2007 | | 5:05 pm |
Its none of my business... But
Bulleted list of retardation: - She's 17, he's 21
- They met on fucking MYSPACE
- They've only been talking (online) for a little over a week
- They only met once (in real life) and it was on Saturday.
But supposedly, they're already "In love" with each other. I do believe in love, but I don't believe in this bullshit. This is the common sort of shit that makes me hate when people say that they love each other. I don't think that love is something that you can fall in and out of or judge by the size of your boner (sorry JK). It just doesn't happen that way.
There is no way that you can judge someone, much less fall in love with them online. You can't really tell who the person is-most people are a complete 180 of who they are in real life compared to online.
I know its not my business, but I just think that this kid (my friend from highschool) is being retarded by dating this girl. I think that she's too young and he's had more experience in 21 years than she'll ever have in a life time. They're two worlds apart and I just don't see it working. Especially with how fast they've jumped into this. I can't say that I agree. | | Friday, April 13th, 2007 | | 4:08 pm |
You know what I really need?
I need someone that will tell me to suck it up and deal with it. Not tell me that everything will be alright in the end. I need someone that will tell me to stop bitching/complaining/moaning. Not interject with, "Oh no" and "Are you serious?" I need someone that will challenge my intelligence. Not someone that will make my IQ lower as I speak to them. I need someone that will get aggressive and tell me when I'm wrong. Not nod as if every word I say is truth. I need someone that will challenge my faith, my values, my morals, and my ideas. Not fall in step with my every word and follow exactly what I say. I need someone that will be an asshole and chew me out. Not be nice to me when I'm being a bitch. I need someone to put me in line. Not follow in my destructive paths. I need someone that will bitch slap me back into reality. Not let me wallow in my own self pity. That's a real friend. Not someone who will just let you bitch and bitch about how horrible your life is. But someone who will get in your face and tell you that you're being fucking stupid. This is what I'm looking for. Can you live up to my new-found standards? | | 9:42 am |
So, I'm still debating on if I'm going to WI or not. I can't decide. I want to go, but I still have to do my taxes (which will take forever due to my one boss not sending me my W-2s, stupid bitch). So, I'm going to need all the help my dad can give me. So I have to reserve some time for that this weekend, plus I might go check out this apartment on Sunday as well. So I think I might go up for just tonight and then come home tomorrow. I just don't know if I want to drive that much. Arg, I want to see some people there and I really want to see Jimmie too. I just don't know if I'm up for that much driving. Granted, I know its not a six hour drive to Minnesota, but its still more of a drive than I want to deal with. God, I hate being lazy. | | Thursday, April 12th, 2007 | | 2:17 pm |
| | 11:36 am |
So, I guess I like to call people in my sleep. Oops. Today's busy at work--for some people. Not me. I guess I screwed up on the invoices the first week I did them and now its created problems. Now I feel like shit. Its an easy job, so that means that I just wasn't paying attention when I was doing it. I guess I thought it was easier than it really was. So, they took it away from me and now all I do is answer phones. Makes for a really slow day on my part. ... I just want a nap. | | Tuesday, April 10th, 2007 | | 10:03 am |
Oh yeah...
And my end total for yesterday was 75 games. I've already beaten 17 games so far, I'm stuck on this one though. I'm giving it a rest for a few before I start up again. So, myspace and livejournal it is. |
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